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6 Dec 2017

Catching up with myself...

They say time flies when you're having fun. It turns out time also flies when you have a quarter life crisis, drop out of uni, move twice and flip your whole life upside down. Twice.

I titled this post 'Catching up with myself' because I feel like I haven't given myself enough time recently. After I dropped out of uni (definitely a story for another day) I was so keen to prove to everyone that I could succeed and that I could make it on my own that I lost sight of what I wanted. I ended up in an awful job that made me miserable and left me feeling like I couldn't possibly go anywhere in my life if this was what full time work was. It wasn't until I started at a new company doing something totally out of my comfort zone that everything clicked into place.

I finally felt like myself again, which is bizarre considering my new role was completely alien to me but I felt like I fit in there. My team were amazing and like a second family and it was exactly what I needed to get me out of the black hole I was in.

Fast forward 18 months and I'm still with the same company. I've moved up in my career and moved down the country again. I couldn't have been happier to be promoted and take on new challenges despite the initial anxiety.

This company has helped me realise that full time work isn't meant to be crying to your boyfriend every night. It's not waking up to a panic attack every morning at the thought of getting on the train to go to the office.

The only issue is, despite how lucky I am and despite feeling like I've found my perfect career, my head has a habit of shaking things up just as I'm getting comfortable and so in typical Ellysia fashion, I've sort of lost my way again.

About 2 months ago, getting up to go to work started to become a chore, opening the curtains on my day off was a task and dragging myself out of the house to go and buy food was pretty much impossible. I've struggled with my mental health before so I knew the signs and I knew I wasn't quite right but why was I feeling like this when I was happy? I'd found a job that I loved so why do I feel like shit every day?

Truth Is, it's nothing to do with my job, it's nothing to do with being happy, nothing to do with my relationship or how much money I'm making. It's nothing to do with absolutely anything other than chemicals. Sometimes, things get a little bit out of whack and it's so easy to blame ourselves and tell ourselves that we should be doing more, that we're lazy or that there's no reason to be sad when in actual fact there doesn't need to be a reason. I've started new medication after arguing with myself for weeks and being stubborn because 'I didn't need them and the air is just starting to clear after a month or so.

Anti depressants aren't a miracle cure. They're not happy pills. However, what they do best is clear the fog a little so that you can focus on yourself and focus on moving forward.

I'm not really writing this for any purpose other than to clear some space in my mind. I've been reading a friend's blog recently who works for the same company as me and it inspired me to put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) again and word vomit all over the internet.

Now I've rambled on using terrible grammar and punctuation it will probably be another 3 years before I stop hoarding my thoughts again.

Speak soon (when I'm 26)



15 Apr 2014

Catch Up - It's been too long!

Hey! Long time no see lovelies, As many of you will already know, I'm a student and naturally as the academic year comes to an end I've had so much work to do. I've had an exam and lots of coursework so with portfolio's and essays coming out of my ears I decided to put blogging on hold till my deadlines had passed. 
I've missed writing for you guys so much and so just one day after my last deadline, I'm back! I've had lots going on outside all my work which include a lot of stressful things and a couple of lovely things just to balance it all out! 

I'm finally back home for the summer and it's so lovely getting to spend so much time with my family and my boyfriend, One of my best friends got engaged which was just amazing and I've had a great time catching up with my friends this past couple of weeks in between finishing and submitting work. 
I recently started my Slimming World diet too and I've been really enjoying it, weigh in isn't till tomorrow so I'm not sure how I've done yet but I've been sticking to it religiously and I've been loving trying out all the new recipes, maybe an idea for a post soon?
My skin has been so bad since moving back home, I thought maybe it was the change in water? Or is that a silly suggestion? My usual skincare just isn't clearing it up, if any of you have any suggestions for really dry skin and breakouts then let me know because it's driving me mad!! 
Now I have so much more time on my hands again there will be at least 3 posts a week, maybe even more if I get a spare evening. 

Don't forget to comment with your skincare tips to save a poor bloggers life!



2 Mar 2014

Giveaway Winner!!

I just want to say a huge thank you for everyone that came along and entered my giveaway this month! 
I used random.org number generator to find the winner.

Well done to Jessica McKenzie from http://www.jessicamckenzie.blogspot.co.uk!!

I wil be running another giveaway soon so keep you're eyes peeled! 




18 Feb 2014

My 20th Birthday - Haul

I would like to firstly apologise for my lack of posts recently! I've been Ill and then I was so busy for my birthday that I just had no time or energy to put enough effort into a post and didn't want to write a half decent one just to fill a gap. 

I had such an amazing birthday weekend and that is all thanks to my amazing family and friends!

I went out for the day in Liverpool with my family and my boyfriend which was lovely and did a fair bit of shopping. I've taken pictures of the things that I bought whilst in Liverpool and a few bits and bobs that I received from my family and my boyfriend's family too.

I finally took the plunge and bought the Naked 3. So far I have been so so impressed with it. I have quite small eyes and so the lighter colours seem to really compliment them and make them pop! I will be hopefully be doing a full review soon!

I love the style of the keyring and notebook that my boyfriend's mum and auntie bought me! They look lovely in my room too and I've found a nice way to display them. I was thinking about doing a 'room tour' post so let me know if you would like to see that. 

I also picked up a lovely backpack style bag from Forever 21. I love the fact that it never falls off my shoulder like my other everyday bags and It's so spacious. It's great for carrying my things around uni .

My little brother got me a custom made Smiths mug with a painting of Morrissey on that a family member did. He paints custom canvasses and so this has real sentimental value to me!This goes perfectly with the T-shirt that I bought from HMV (fangirl alert)!!!

I also popped into MAC and picked up 'Creme In your Coffee' which is a lovely Cremesheen Lipstick and MAC Iridescent powder in Silver Dusk which I am loving as a highlight or just adding a little bit to my foundation for a lovely glow.

I had such a great weekend seeing family and picked up lots of things from my wish list! I also had this amazing salad in Pret, Crayfish and Avacado! Yum!!!

I'd love to know what's on your wish list! Drop me a comment below!




5 Feb 2014

REVIEW - Emma Hardie Natural Lift and Sculpt Body Scrub

This was one of those products that I expected a lot from. Since the cleansing balm is so amazing I did really hope that this would live up to the same expectations and so far I can honestly say that it has. 
It can be used as a mask or as a scrub and at first I decided to just try it as a scrub. I applied it in the same way that I would use an exfoliating scrub and used it on more dry areas because it did feel quite harsh and I know how sensitive my skin can be. I applied it all over the backs of my arms and my legs and also used a little bit on my back as my skin can get quite dry there, I did notice that the 'Organic Red Corn'  really did exfoliate my skin and I could tell straight away that it was working which was nice. I love the fact that it's really thick as I felt like it was really moisturising as well as exfoliating. The smell is another thing that really stood out to me. 
The Moringa scent is really fresh and lingers on the skin just the right amount without being overpowering.
I noticed that the dry patches on my arms and blemishes on my back really did clear up and I felt that the scrub really did moisturise those areas well!
When using it in mask form I just applied a similar amount to problem areas and left for a few minutes while conditioning my hair before rinsing and massaging off. 
I didn't necessarily notice that one method was more beneficial than the other as both worked wonders for my skin.
Now to justify the normal price tag when I need to replace!

Have you tried this product or any body scrubs that you think match up? 
Drop me a comment and let me know! 




29 Jan 2014

GIVEAWAY!!! - Urban Decay Naked Basics Palette + Primer Potion

It was always my intention to hold a giveaway when I reached 500 Bloglovin' followers to say a big Thank You and so although admittedly a little late here it is!
The prize will be 1 Urban Decay Naked Basics palette and 1 Eyeshadow Primer Potion! 

Check out the rules below for your chance to win!

- Must be following www.leeshajayne.com either on Bloglovin' or Google
- Comment below telling me what your number one eye product is
- You can enter once per day, 1 comment = 1 entry
- I will be choosing the winner using random.org on 1st March 2014
- Winner will be announced through a blog post on 1st March 2014

Good Luck!!




21 Jan 2014

Haul - Beauty and Stationary

This was one of those shopping trips that was supposed to cost me a few pounds for my train fare and a few pounds for my dinner. I had every intention of window shopping. I just happened to pop into the Apple store and the customer service that I received annoyed me that much that I made an angry impulse purchase (or 2...or 3).

Urban Decay - Naked Palette- £37

I had been pondering over the Naked palettes for so long. I had never actually made the plunge because my tight budget had always stopped me in my tracks but my friend was buying it and I just couldn't stop myself this time. I tried to justify it as an early birthday present. A month early isn't too much right? I also may have ordered the Naked 2 last night. Oops!! 

Emma Hardie - Natural Lift and Sculpt Body Treatment - £20
After trying out the cleansing balm I just needed this in my life. I have been looking for something to sort out the skin on the tops of my arms and my legs for what seems like forever and nothing has ever been quite what I was looking for so hopefully this will do the trick! I cannot believe that I got this for £20 in TK Maxx when it's usually priced at £46. Such a bargain! I will be posting a review in the next couple of weeks so keep your eyes peeled!

Sleek - Blush by 3 - Lace - £9.99
I have been lusting after this for honestly about 2 years. The Superdrug near me doesn't have a sleek stand so whenever I go out for the day I always go in and swatch it before telling myself that I don't need it and regretting it for well, 2 years as it happens. I absolutely love the coral colours in this palette and I just know that it will be perfect for summer! 

Elizabeth Arden - New York In Bloom Bold Eye Pencil - Platinum Glow - £6.00
TK Maxx always seem to have products from this collection and I never seem to find anything that I really like. However, I came across this Eye Pencil today and it's such an amazing colour. I think that it will be really versatile and I can't wait to have a play around with it and work out how to use it best. 

Paperchase Scrapbook - £10

If any of you have seen Disney's 'Up' then you may understand the thought process that led to me purchasing this scrapbook. I always say that I want to start properly recording where I have been and keeping little bits and pieces but I never get round to it and I never really found a book that I really wanted to use. I know that you can buy the same book that is used in Up but I wanted something different and more me. I plan to dedicate half of it to where I have been and then it true Up style, I will dedicate the second half to all the adventures that I plan on going on either with my boyfriend or on my own. I will start a series when I've made up my first page which could be fun. 

Paperchase Set of 3 Notebooks - £6

I absolutely love the print on these books. The paper is such good quality and I love the fact that I can use a different notebook for each of my modules at Uni. I always like to have a different book for each and these are just perfect. I am a little obsessed with the new Paperchase lines and no doubt more items will be making an appearance here soon! 

Not bad considering my annoyance with Apple! I definitely could have spent a lot more after that trip! 

Have you tried any of these products? What did you think?